On my darkest nights, a big thought that engulfs me is how this pain I feel is something so, so, so many people feel around the world. I know it is often a source of comfort to know you are not alone - but all I can think is, why? Why do so many people have to hurt so deeply. I wouldn't wish such emptiness and sadness on anyone, not my worst enemy. I cry thinking about how so many of us have to go through it, to live with it. And on my darkest nights, I cry and make du'a and pray with all my heart that if perhaps there was a way for me to shoulder everyone else's pain so no one in the world had to feel this way, please, please ya Allah let me. Please take this sadness away from others, I'll take it on. At the very least at least my struggle will hold some meaning. And at the most no one else would have to suffer anymore.